When I go off my meds, I start feeling like I'm coming down with the flu. I get light-headed, muscles get tight and hurt, I cannot focus, everything bothers me.  I only go off of my meds when my doctor won't give me a refill, or I cannot afford to pay for them. The lack of money happens far too often because the only job I could find is $10 per hour 20 hours a week, and my husband is working through a temp agency. He has a lead on a much better job, hopefully it will pan out because something needs to happen.

No one wants me to feel like this, and no one wants to deal with me when I am not medicated.

We have worked harder than a lot of people I know who have so much more than we do. And they don't see why there's a problem...

my ideal job

I think the perfect job for me would be research. Where people, or even one awesome friend of a boss, asks me to find information and I find the info and create a report on it. I like learning new things. I like looking for information. I like turning that information into reports that others can easily read and use for whatever purpose.

Is this a job somewhere? If so, how can I get into this work?